July 2010
6 posts
Some kinda life...
Breathe. Just freakin’ breathe. For two days I’ve had to remind myself to just inhale and exhale. Sometimes it hurts even to do that. Stupid stupid chest pains. My doctor had bad news for me today. In regards to my chest pain, she wants me to get a couple x-rays and some blood work done. Awesome. In regards to the reason she actually called me, I have to have a biopsy done....
Today I worked, went to the grocery store, went to BWR’s with Josh for some beers, cooked dinner and watched a movie with my family. Mom picked up my new battery from the Apple store so now my laptop doesn’t have to be plugged in to work! Yay! I talked to Roni about our plans for this next week, which just HAPPEN to include disco roller skating!!!! Yes-be jealous!
I’ve also...
Lies.
I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that I’ve been lied to over and over again and I think that’s helping me push past my immediate feelings of hurt. It was like, the longer I stuck around the more the truth came out. I should have run the other direction a long time ago. The only thing that kept me where I was was my own feelings. I cared for him despite the lies. I...
I do not understand how I came to be so lucky, but there it is, never the less.I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for. I needed them and they were there for me. I have gotten support from places I did not expect to receive support from and that alone makes me feel really great. Two days ago I was miserable. Yesterday was rough. Today I still feel an ache, but it’s dulling....
I feel as though I’ve been duped. I feel like a complete idiot or moron or whatever word will interchange with those. I feel like I’ve been lied to. Over and over and over again. I cannot believe I feel this way for all that bullshit. He’d say he wanted to tell me he loved me but didn’t know if he should. He’d say he wanted to take a road trip together, just the two of us. He’d say I was...
May 2010
11 posts
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I am feeling so incredibly confused. It’s probably because I think too much. I hate this!! Why do I keep doing this to myself??? Only God knows, cuz I sure as hell don’t.
While I was away...
I decided that I’d be an idiot if I didn’t commit to a relationship with you. You have a good head on your shoulders and you know what you want out of life. How could I not want to be with you? I admit I was confused, but I know what I want now. I want you.
The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love...
If you just realize what I just realized, Then we’d be perfect for each other and we’d never find another, Just realize what I just realized, We’d never have to wonder if we missed out on each other. I want to feel this way. Sometimes it feels wrong. Sometimes I feel like that means putting too much faith in someone who might just tear your heart out. Why does it have to...
A good good day...
I had a pretty good day today. I woke up at 9, was at work by 10. Had my lunch break at 2pm and found out that Ace is working at Subway by the Lowe’s I work at. She gave me a free meal! Pretty sweet. I’m gonna have to visit her a lot more often now that I know she works so close by! I think I’m gonna go out with her and a bunch of her friends on Friday night. They cut my...
I'm back!
I had a great vacation and really enjoyed visiting with my family. I’ve missed them all so much and I wish I could have stayed longer. Two full days was just not enough!! I spent some time yesterday and today laying out, so I am definitely looking darker than I have been. I’ve also lightened my hair a few shades so I’m pretty blonde now. It’s good times! I’ve...
It's been a while!
I have been so crazy busy lately! Monday last week I started my work week at Lowe’s and have worked every day up until yesterday! I had Wednesday off from Lowe’s, but I had studio time that day so I didn’t really have a day off. Things are going well at Lowe’s. I’m catching on pretty quick and management seems to like me so that’s definitely a plus. Friday...
Recording!
I took the day off work at Lowe’s to record some piano and harp down in San Marcos! Huzzah! Yay for making money doing what I LOVE! We grabbed coffee and I got a blueberry muffin for breakfast before we got going, but now we’re in full swing! The harp player is here and we’re working some stuff out. I’m super excited to record harp. It’ll be something totally...
ronibobonnie:
I went to subway for a sandwich and now I smell like bread. Every time I go in there I pick up the smell and it is not a pleasant smell. You would think yum fresh bread, but this smell is yeasty and mildly putrid.
Chica, I feel the exact same way about it! I used to like the smell, but oh no, not anymore. Bleh.
There's some complaining in here...
I woke up at 8 this morning, not to mention all the times I woke up throughout the night, because my head feels like there’s a pencil lodged in the side of it. Somewhere around the temple area. I freaking hate migraines. I hate waking up crying because I’m in so much pain. I hate that I can’t take my meds before I go to bed because they have caffeine in them and will keep me...
April 2010
32 posts
Before I head to bed...
Time to update! Zach is stoked with the mixes and three of the five are COMPLETE! Such good news! Only minor things to fix on the other two, so that’s pretty great. I had work this morning. It went pretty well. I finished all of their training videos this morning so they put me out on the floor for some real world training. Fun! It went really well, so I’m looking forward to...
San Marcos!
I went to work from 8-1 today then drove out to San Marcos to be in the studio by 2pm. I worked on Zach’s tracks until about 5pm then went back to Roni’s house. She and I met up for dinner after she got off work and now we’re chilling on the couch watching Dancing with the Stars. Roni’s obsessed. It is really entertaining. I have to admit. I like their outfits. I...
Dislike.
I do not like being lied to or feeling like I’m being lied to, and based on prior experiences, I’ve gotten pretty good at being able to tell when that’s going down. Is it too hard to ask for people to just BE HONEST with me? Stop caring about hurting my feelings, I’m a lot tougher than you might think. I feel like people tip toe around the truth when it comes to me...
Sleep so good...
So after not sleeping at all Friday night, I slept like the dead last night. I find it odd that people say I slept like a baby because have you ever been around a baby for any length of time?? They wake up every few hours! What a terrible analogy. No, I slept like the dead last night. It was fantastic! Yesterday I had orientation at Lowe’s and it was pretty great. I think I’m...
Good Morning, Blog World!
I AM AWAKE! I have been awake all night. It’s been an interesting evening. I met up with Roni for dinner at Magnolia Cafe which was amazing (YUM enchiladas!) then after a couple errands she and I went downtown to discover that Blunt Force Trauma was not playing like we thought they were (bummer!). So we wandered aimlessly for a while until Ace showed up, and then Adam showed up. We...
Working Girl!
So I got offered a job at Lowe’s this morning! Finally! Some work! Time to start putting some money in the bank and maybe by the end of summer I’ll be able to move out of my parent’s house!! Roni and I are going to celebrate this evening by grabbing some dinner together! Tomorrow I have orientation starting at 8 am. Sooo early, but that’s okay because it means...
I miss...
I miss when things were simple and people were almost too open with information. I miss the times when there wasn’t all the extra crap around to complicate ones life. I miss when my biggest worries were about whether or not my friends could come out to play. I miss being within blocks or even feet of my best friends. I miss getting a straight-forward answer to a straight-forward...
Pretty nice day!
I woke up about 10:30 this morning to my cat trying to get out me of bed to feed her, per usual. I checked the weather then suited up for my 2 mile run. I always feel so accomplished when I get done, but while it’s going on I feel like I’m going to die. I have to keep telling myself, okay only another quarter mile, you can do another quarter mile. Okay now that you did that quarter...
GRRRRRR
I really hate when people flake out on you. I pride myself on being really reliable-in the workplace, as a sister/daughter, and as a friend. If I make plans with someone, well damnit I follow through. If something doesn’t go down, it is rarely my fault. It’s usually because someone else flaked out on me. I seem to attract this type of person. Or maybe it’s just that easy to...
Okie Dokie
I got to what I believe is a pretty good stopping point on the Blood For Master stuff yesterday, so today I’m mixing it up with some Zach Balch because I have not worked on his stuff in far too long!
Had a good time with the peeps last night at Showdown. I wish I lived back in San Marcos again. Roni posted in her blog the other day about how she thinks her crazy emotional problems stem...
Gonna be a busy week...
-Studio time today and tomorrow. -Shopping with mom tomorrow for dad’s birthday. -Going to dinner with the family on Wednesday for dad’s birthday. -Meeting up with the band on Thursday to let them hear some possibly final mixes. -Final interview with Lowe’s on Friday. Next week is still pretty open but May is looking super busy already. Good thing, I spose. I got busy just...
Last night
I ended the night in one of those vulnerable moods where you just want someone to hold you for a while and then realized that I’d have to drive at least an hour to get that. One person who would sit and hold me and tell me everything was okay is all it takes and I don’t have anyone to do that who lives any closer than San Marcos. I have an empty 60 mile radius around me. Don’t...
Is it me?
GEMINI:
“I THINK”
• Versatile, adaptable
• Alert, curious, restless
• Sociable, friendly, breezy
• Superficial, flighty, two-faced
• Indecisive, vacillating
• Nervous energy, talkative
• Keen perceptions & senses
• Intellectual, mentally oriented
• People-oriented
• Open-minded, questioner
I don’t know about that Superficial, flighty, two-faced...
Just another day in the neighborhood.
I saw Rajiv last night!! We met up at Third Base and had a couple drinks. It was nice having a chance to catch up with him again. I think it’s been at least two months since I’d seen him. He’s supposed to come out for drinks on Monday night while I’m in San Marcos. That’ll be nice, so that other people can see the mysterious Rajiv-phantom as well. Yesterday I...
Woke up on the right side of the bed today!
I think I’m getting closer to knowing what I want in the man department. At least as far as generalities go. For once, I want to be with someone who’s passionate about something. I want to be with someone who has their life figured out, who knows what they want and isn’t afraid to go for it. I want to be with someone who doesn’t feel like they need me, but rather feels...
I’m looking to find my someone, my everything. I thought I had it once, but I didn’t. I was wrong. But here I am, now. I’m trying to be patient but I seem to find myself wading through a lot of bullshit. Is it wrong to want to be someone’s everything? I think I’m just in one of those moods. I’m sure tomorrow I’ll wake up and it won’t be an...
ronibobonnie:
Stephy is on my couch talking to some dude. She has a migraine and is extremely sore. Do you know how I know that she is really sore? I slapped her leg and told her “LETS DO PILATES tomorrow morning.” She yowled and called me a bitch(in a loving sort of way). I love her lots and lots.
It was a loving sort of way because I love you lots and lots too!! And my legs are still sore...
Today = better!
So, I woke up today feeling eh, but talked it out and now I feel much better. There was something that’s been bothering me and I think that may be why I got the migraine, but the situation has been handled and I feel like it’s a good solution. I definitely feel more relaxed about it. I love that my head feels so much better today. That was not fun yesterday. It hurt pretty much...
Ugh
I feel like crap. I don’t want to be working, I want to be in bed sleeping. The drive out to San Marcos this morning sucked balls. Big hairy monkey balls. My head was bothering me a little bit last night but it wasn’t any big thing. I took some motrin and forgot about it. Unfortunately it decided to retaliate and become a full blown migraine this morning. I hate waking up that...
Just passing a little time!
Just dropping into blog world to pass some time before I head to South Austin to meet up with Roni for some comida. Yesterday was a pretty good day. Sara was in town so we went down to the drag for some lunch and shopping. I found a super cute dress that I really want! I’ll have to wait til I’m not broke though… Overall it was a good visit with her. Except the part where I...
alexrager asked: I gots yo back. Gimme a shout if you need anything!
Huzzah!
So I have my power steering back! Fun story, I wake up at 8 AM (Okay, okay more like 8:15 because I hit the snooze button a couple of times…) and am out the door by about 8:30 AM. I drive to my local Chevy dealership (Henna Chevrolet will stand by you!) to get my car checked out by their service department. I called on Tuesday to figure out whether they would fix my car under the recall...
It's still early...
The day is still young, and I’m still tired. I woke up and just couldn’t get back to sleep. My alarm will be going off in 8 minutes, telling me it’s time to get ready and head out. Not much point in trying to sleep more now. Jake called last night and said he’s supposed to be leaving for Corpus today for work. I’m not sure if that still stands, or will still...
Feeling better...
I’m feeling a lot better today. It always helps to spend some time with Roni. I can get all of my issues out of my head which really calms me down. I went to the river with Roni and Rosie yesterday and floated it for the first time ever. She was pretty amazed that I had never floated the San Marcos river after living here for 4 and a half years…Well now I have…after I already...
Poopy.
I feel crappy today. I’m at the studio, but I just can’t seem to concentrate. *Dislike* I went running my mouth off last night when I probably shouldn’t have, said a bunch of things I probably shouldn’t have, and now I feel like a complete moron. Why can’t I just be happy? Things start to go really well but I have to swoop in and screw it all up. I guess if...
Happy Easter!
I hope everyone is having a good day! Mine isn’t so bad, so far! Jake called and woke me up…it was a nice way to wake up. Went to Home Depot with Dad to buy a new light kit for the ceiling fan in my brother’s room. His was broken a while ago and Dad was finally getting around to fixing it. Also helped Dad hang a picture that he bought for Mom for Xmas. I think the only...
Sitting at home
So for those of you who are not aware, the power steering in my car keeps going out. Apparently Chevy is supposed to be coming out with a recall for this little problem of mine, but they have not yet issued it. This means that I’m stuck with it until they do decide to send that little letter my way that says they’ll fix it for free. I don’t have the money to fix it even if I...
Bored.
Applied for a couple jobs today. A data entry clerk for Williamson County and a Cashier at Lowe’s. I checked the Kohl’s website, but they only list management jobs. Pass. I’m not sure where else to check. Hmm… I need a new swimsuit. One of mine is falling apart. All the elastic is breaking. I still have the one, but I can’t wear that every day! I need to be...
Bah...
Interviewed at BCBG…that turned from a really awesome idea to a really awful idea… I applied for a job at the City of Round Rock. It’s an adminstrative position. It’d be a really nice job, but they want someone with a municipal background and I don’t really have that. I do have administrative experience though…bleh. I have seen some job postings for camp...
March 2010
6 posts
Activating launch sequence...
Commencing shitty job search…NOW.